expectant.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
oh man...
3:13 PM
oh man... my bags damn heavy... todae gotta bring home all the stuff under my damn table... haha... yea! so glad tt todae's last dae of school... hmm, but not realli.. still got another week of extra lessons.. more tests n even GP exam on fridae...
on a diff note, i had a dream last nite.. a weird one.. n its abt him... in my dream, he moved house, but wiv his mom this time... n it was a place very near my house.. like a flat near kristle's place... they had a huge house-warming party... ppl were playin mahjong.. a few tables, includin him... its funny, i went there wiv my brother... when we reached the door, there were so many many ppl... but his mom graciously welcomed mi in.. she was so nice... but it seemed like my purpose for going there was merely to return him smth... i was in a sullen mood the whole time... i felt relieved tt my bro was there to keep mi company the whole time...i asked his mom if i could juz get her to pass him that smth (i dunno wat it is)... but she insisted on callin him out... she called out for him once... but he didn't appear... i waited, he didn't come out.. i waited somemore... n more... den i woke up.. his face never appeared in the dream...
todae, all i tot abt was this dream.. it realli is significant in context wiv my life... his movin of house to be closer to mine is how much i've grown in love n attached wiv him... the many ppl there could be all the quarrels n problems tats lingered btw us for so long... (forgot to mention tt the ppl never left, it was always crowded)... my brother's companion is the support n strength i get from friends, mostly drey i feel... n his delay n failure to appear is his current attitude towards mi.. not wanting to bother as much as in the past...
i feel great todae anywae! its been a long while since i've gotten myself together... no, i shall not question him abt his whereabouts anymore... his has the rights to his freedom n space w/o mi...