expectant.
Sunday, June 06, 2004
mummy's b'dae...
7:45 PM
whoa! two daes past already... yesterdae was mom's b'dae... keke.. but i still went shoppin the whole of the dae wiv tiang and ah toot... hey! i'm not bad la! mom was happily playin mahjong, dad was workin n matt got his own stuff to do k! keke... well, we did hang out as a family after tt okay... went to eat at swensons.. den watched harry potter!! hmm, i read the book, so the movie was a lil short of alot of the details... oh well... it was alrite after all...
hey, u noe wat? i was mostly shoppin alone yesterdae... met up wiv tiang n shurong onli after i got everything... hmm, its realli fun shoppin alone... especially wen u're not shoppin for urself, but for the one u love. my advice to girls out there hu need to do shoppin for the one u love, GO ALONE. NOT WIV FRIENDS. sure, friends can give their opinions n stuff, but ur frens won't noe wat ur guy wants, they won't noe wat he needs. agree? well, i got almost all i need for the one i love. hope the one i love likes them. wish mi luck.
2 daes more to our 5th month.. *sighz. these 5 months were tough... they were more painful den joyous... yet i'm still holdin on to these 5 months n still hopin they'll last 4eva... y... i dunno... i want us to last 4eva... but...
todae is reef boy's b'dae (coral's bro). so cute, onli mi n letta celebrated wiv him. keke... a child's innocence.. so genuine, so priceless... even wiv no friends ard, juz parents n family, yet he's contented, even HAPPY. y can't i be like tt? y can most of us be like tt? ....
ppl keep askin mi if we're ok, i dun wanna talk abt it. wat can i sae? we aren't OKAY. things can neva be the same unless, unless i dunno... i can't expect him to be like be4. tat will be selfish of me. i dun wanna be selfish. i'll accept him whicheva he is. but how long can i endure his words when he's angry? do i continue to keep quiet? everynite, so much thoughts run ard in my mind. when u cum back, we'll u help mi tk them away...
i've wriiten too much.. all i see ard mi now are happy couples =) n i'm happy for them... drey n nelson: try notta use hurtful words against each toher alrite? it might be normal in ur everydae lives but wiv each other, there is a need to change. dun be petty. give in. not onli one shld give in. both shld., angie n aloy: u guys seem preety alrite. but i guess deep down u guys have ur own probs. tk care of each other. i bet u guys will last long., maine n kang: not much time left. use every moment to tell n show each other how much u love each other ya? i love u guys too! ... u guys, treasure each other... dun tk each other for granted... u mite regret, u mite not, but things may not be the same again if u realli hurt each other. ya? we'll hang out soon ya!
tmr, confirm going wakeboardin wiv maine, drey, nelson n letta... hope we have fun... need to get my mind off stuff...
tell mi u dun want mi to leave u eva... coz every part of my mind is tellin mi to leave but my heart doesn't want to... i dun want to...